Sunday, March 28, 2010
Imagine a man sitting down with a little angel and demon flooting at either of his sides. He stared at them, looking real troubled and confused. Not knowing which side of rules to follow.
Does this sound familiar to u?
well, for me, it sure does.
In particularly, yesterday. (so maybe every saturday)
I knew I was being real selfish, but I just can't help it!
I knew I shouldnt have done wat I've done, but I just can't help it!
I knew you just wanna have fun, but I just can't help it!
My heart says "am I a burden? why aint I allow to go. I dont want him to have fun while I'm at home!"
(1st, yes I am indeed a burden. If i go, he will be looking after me. if i go, he will have to send me home halfway through cause I'll leave earlier than them all. even if i take my own transport back, he will have to send me to the taxi-stand. 2nd, its pure selfishness.)
My mind says "come on, he just wanna have fun. u got ur moments too!"
(my heart is much more powerful than my mind)
I have the weirdest dream yesterday night.
I have trying to call him, but its either engage or no one picks up.
I tried and tried. Finally, he picks up.
"hello, how come u never ans my phone?"
"erm... cos I just talking on the phone"
"oh alright, den i call u back later"
phone hangs.
few mintues later, I tried calling and the same thing happen
(either engage or no one picks up)
finally, some one picks up
but I suppose he pressed the wrong button and I can hear him talking to someone else (2nd line) "bye bye"
"ok bye bye"
how come its a girl ?! I thought.
thats all, and I woke up feeling like rotten egg.
how about, 8 out of 10 sentences reads clubbing clubbing clubbing
In the car: pop/R&B music starts playing through the radio, he starts dancing.
In the room: click youtube.com, search for pop/R&B songs and starts singing to it PLUS dancing
On the street, in the cinema, in foodcourts, while shopping, in restuarants (almost anywhere, anytime, anyday): randomly says things like "nevermind, wed I go ladies night." "during off, jio my bunkmates go supperclub, butterfactory (and the list goes on)."
I know I know he is just joking.
well, it is INDEED my fault yesterday
I kept him by my side but he still went for it
too late, queue too long, he has to leave.
I smsed him before bed to apologize
but he never reply...