Monday, March 29, 2010
I thought its suppose to be 只要她开心就好?
atleast for me is 只要my boyfriend开心就好.
If I'm being so nice, why cant he say 只要慧敏开心就好?!
even for the thing i hated most (clubbing), I gave in and said "the next time u go, I wont feel a thing" and I mean it! even if he chose not to believe, I know I mean what I said.
I gave in because I know I shouldnt be so selfish
I gave in because I know he would be happier if he goes
I gave in simply because I want him to be happy, to have a carefree relationship with me
But obviously, its not the other way round
He doesnt care if I will like it or not
He doesnt care if I have to force myself to do things that I dont like
as long as he is happy, he is happy.
u get me?
Why cant I dress the way I like when she can dress lidat
and still be loved by million.
Cause people just love lady gaga!
even if she fart, people think its cool.
I believe her fans would supported her in whatever decision she made
and all I'm requesting, is for my boyfriend, the guy who had chosen me to be his one,
to accept me for who I am
to support me
to respect my decision
not to change me
trying changing lady gaga into taylor swift
whats the point?
just go for taylor swift
u get my point?
I'm sure there will be people out there who say "yucks! lady gaga is gross. she tried too hard"
but heck these people.
there will be others who appreciate her.
the same goes for me
if today u tell me "I dont like the wear u dress, sit, talks, eats, sleeps, jumps, cycles, laugh, cry..."
NEVER MIND!
I'm sure there will be people out there who says "I just love YOU"
let me repeat this again
I want a boyfriend who can accept me as me
me as Lin Hui Min
If u say "I still love the old u" well, go find the "old me"
I am who I am today
U should love ME no matter how much I change cos its ME
people love lady gaga no matter what hairstyle she carries, no matter what outfit she wears
cos at the end of the day, she is still lady gaga
u get it?
no matter what hairstyle I carries today, no matter what I wear, I AM STILL ME, LIN HUI MIN
didnt u love LIN HUI MIN?
I'M STILL LIN HUI MIN!!
u get it??????
YOU changed too.
but I accepted u for who u are
I accepted the changed u
U dont go clubbing in the past
U dont always talk about going clubbinh in the past
U dont wear a tshirt underneath a shirt in the past
U would clean the chair for me before I sit down in the past
U would help me carry my stuff in the past
U would ask me to pass u the bottle after I'm done in the past (now u think I should take the cap from me and carry the bottle. like HUH?)
yes, everyone change
but at the end of the day, we learn to adapt
some who cant adapt, might choose the simple way, of forcing others to change, according to his preference
this is no good.
I am not angry, not upset, not frustrated
I am dishearted, heartbroken, speechless