Thursday, March 12, 2009
what should I say
I realise I've been turning to blog so often nowadays
anyway...
whats the point of doing it only after I requested and reminded u
it doesnt comes from within
It shouldnt be this way
now...
no matter what u do, I'd feel that
u did it bcos I asked for it
just put urself in my shoes
I hugged u bcos u requested for it
versus I hugged u without being told to do so
which one sounds better to u
I once said
its either I live with it or I let it go
now, I know very clearly my choice
I'd live with it
until the day it caused suffocation
but I still failed to understand why u choose to say
'Hi, wat u doing?'
isnt it a culture and tradition for couples to say
'Hi dear/darling/baby, wat u doing?'
have u ever told ur parther how much u love him/her
or probably just a simple 3 words phrase?
for me, I've never receive such 'gift'
some girls took the 3 magic words for granted
bcos their boyf showered her with the words everyday
but for me, I'm dying for it
its like a gift or say 'give' to me
I mean...
if u really love someone truely deeply
isnt it true that
u'd want to tell him/her how much u love her uncontrollably
isnt it true that
u'd uncontrollably tell him/her that 3 magic words
its the same for... say...
if u love a pair of jeans
u'd want to wear it for every occasion
its just as simple as that
uncontrollable
even if u're the shy-est person on earth
if u REALLY REALLY does love someone
I believe u'd let him/her know
cause u cant control urself
uncontrollable
and please dont tell me u'll change
changes are usually made unknowingly
changes that goes 'ok, I will change'
normally dont succeed
I think the worst part is to
pick up the phone
and sound like nothing happened
I hope he gets to read this
cause we dont have much time to really talk
so maybe he can understand better through this post
seems like there's an issue everyday, ya?
hahahaha
I'm fine
just need to let them out
then, I'd continue living with it
oh ya
I just realised something
u know what
I would stare or check my cellphone
very very often nowadays
hoping to see his name appear
like maybe a message
or even better, a missed call
if a message is a consolation, a missed call will be the grand prize
It totally felt like 3 things:
1. I'm in a one-sided r/s, waiting for him to reply my message/call
2. I'm secretly in loved with him, praying that god would make him send me a message/call
3. I just broke up with him, hoping he would change his mind and send me a message/call
I can still have this feelings
despite being in a almost 3-years r/s
amazing right?
hahahahaha
should I even be laughing?
I dont know
but nevermind
since I've chose to live with it
might as well laugh at it
right?
my email used to be stronger@hotmail.com
and it stands for strong+ger
a strong girl !!! =)