Sunday, February 15, 2009
I felt SOOOO unappreciated
and I'm SOOOO angry, pissed off
I could feel tears rolling down
these are tears of anger
no matter how much I try
no matter what I do
I still feel unappreciated
like I deserved all this
like I'm in the wrong
like I'm unreasonable
why issit when I know obviously I'm not in fault
yet, I'm still wondering if I'm wrong
how is this happening
why is this happening
do I deserve this?
do u really deserve what I gave u?
can someone please give me a piece of advice
can someone analysis it
and give me a clearer picture
Image putting your whole heart into it
and feel like u only receive one quarter of it back
I've never ever do something so whole heartedly before
ever before
so now I try and all I receive is failure?!
maybe to u, its really nothing
and u dont udst why am I kicking up such a big fuss
but please
if u dont udst, u never will
so just leave me alone
leave me alone to struggle
try not to drown
try not to let go
and continue believing what I believe will happen
I'm sure its not just beliefs
I'm sure it does exist
give me hope
even if its a one-sided effort
I dont mind doing it alone
I will stand strong
atleast show to me, prove to me, let me feel that
its all worth the effort
u're a man
u shouldnt have let this happen
nevermind nevermind
as u've said 'u wont understand'
yes indeed, I dont understand.
I dont want to be negative
so show me the opposite side
If one day I woke up
and all that I'm left to relay on
is the one I see in the mirror
it will be far more depressing for me to handle
throw the thinking away will u
throw that weird mentality behind your back
wake up
did u realise this will hinder the procession
lets proceed.
or rather, shall we proceed?