Friday, November 11, 2005
i'm so sorry. i'm afraid i can't accompany u to Campus Superstar anymore.
i can't fulfil all my promises.
its all starts one yr plus back.
i met him in sch.
we were classmates.
i stil rmb, the 1st tin i said to him was, 'hey, u look like a rat'
on dis particular day, i suppose PT, me, lynn n kaili get into som kinda trob 4 skippin CME class.
so all of us were caught.
PT stands for poon tong.
so without fail, they lie to us tt they wil b expel.
i was scare out of my wits.
i almost cried.
i chased aft them all the way to soccer field n tired to confirm the news wif shou wei.
den he came n said 'u tin dis kinda tin nice to joke meh'
he was as fierce as usual.
so i was angry n stomp off.
shou wei n him gave chase.
finally, shou wei get hold of me, n explained to me tt they were lying.
it was such a relief cos at tt point of time, i dun1 PT to b out of our class.
without PT, it means whole of the yr wil b like hell, bored.
i was relief n asked 'so how are your?'
he smile n replied 'canning oni lo, den buttok not nice, no zar bor like oni'
he was as humourous as usual.
aft tt incident, we din haf much interaction.
until on sw's bday, we were all invited to kbox.
the guys were happily singing 5566's songs.
chin wei n i was kinda bored.
so he decide to show me som magic instead.
i was amazed by it n insist he teach me how to do it.
i got hold of it n decide to show it to som1.
lookin ard, i can't find any1 tt is free.
except 4 him, he was lying dwn on the sofa.
so i get him to sit up n i showed it to him.
he showed me a grin, and break the magic immediately aft i've done it once.
he went on sayin he wil show me sth.
so he took out a coin, n do HIS magic.
ya, i was again amazed n insist tt he teach me.
aft tt, i guess the kbox-ing went on.
i duno since when, he start to fall in luv wif me.
n i get to noe it thru wei hong (our common good fren)
for a period of time, i was down wif fever.
din go sch 4 quite som time.
i suppose wei hong get him to pick up his courage n gave me a call sayin, 'hi huimin, i'm *******, how are u? are u coming to sch tml?'
at tt time, i was too weak to tok, so i jus replied a 'ya, i'm too weak to tok, msg me if u wan' and den i hang off.
aft tt, i msg wei hong to ask him if 9654**** is his number.
so dis is how i got his number.
den we start messaging abt eryday.
i knew he like me but som how, the feelin is stil not dere yet.
den, the turnin point happens ere.
on another particular day, me, lynn, yan kiat, wei yiao n him went to orchard cos wei yiao was cuttin his hair dere n we went to meet dem for duno wat reason.
den we start walkin together.
n as we walk, dere is dis magnetic force which attracts me towards wei yiao.
i duno y.
so i told lynn n she was shocked.
tt nite i suppose, i called wei yiao n told him all abt it.
n i suppose, he felt the same way as i do.
i guess bcos of dis, dereck hates me.
in fact, i hate myself too.
n again, its shou wei, hu break the news to him.
i was scared, duno how to face him.
he walked out of the classroom, showed me a thumbs up sign n smile.
i left, wif wei yiao.
but aft tt, guan sheng told me he cried.
i felt guilty.
i dun1 to hurt him lik dis cos som1 ever told me before, if a guy crys 4 u, he loves u.
so i cried too cos i was confuse.
on this partcular day, i decied dis shld't go on.
so i told wei yiao we shld part.
n he agreed.
den aft quite som time, i start to develop feelin 4 him.
i tot he will be the one.
cos he is the one hu can accept the real me.
dis is wat i tot.
so i accepted him.
n since den, we were a pair.
1yr plus.
i haf no courage to go n actualy count wats the actual number of days n months.
i can oni say, 1yr plus.
but i guess, we get into it too quickly.
i'm sorry.
deep dwn my heart, u wil always be a caring, frenly, humourous n nice guy.
sincerely, wish u can find another happiness.
dere is stil a long way to go.
buck up, cheer up.
i'm sorry but i do blive both of us haf already tried our best to work things out.
mayb to u, i've done nth, but in fact, i've already tired.
its up to u to blive.
since dis is the ending den we shall let it be n accept it.
if we force ourself, n try to go against the fate, the ending wil stil be the same aft all.
unless u can totally change ur mindset.
but i no longer expect u to do so.
cos i noe, dere is no way u can achieve it.
no matter how much time i give u.
fate brought us together.
thou we can no longer be a pair,
i wish we can stil stay as fren.
cos u noe me the best.
thankz 4 all ur luv, care n concern.
take care n good bye.